I have recently diagnosed myself with something that I like to call professional ADD, and I'm finally ok with it. To put the symptoms of this in a nutshell if you were to ask me what I want to be when I grow up, my answer would be a list a mile long. Also, I don't necessarily need to be paid for doing most of these things. Just blissfully doing. . . EVERYTHING.
Once upon a time I was desperately searching for a career to define me. I was working at Starbucks and had just realized that what I was going to school for at that time (I think then it was surgical technician), really wasn't something I wanted to be stuck in. I was for sure
stuck working at Starbucks. I was getting paid an overly decent amount to sling coffee, with benefits. We had a kid, a house, debt and I felt completely adrift at my job. Then out of the blue I had this ground breaking idea to start my own business as a personal chef. I wasn't trained in the kitchen professionally, but I had a lot of nutrition knowledge (also one of my many majors in college) and had been cooking for years. I leaped headfirst in to it and at first it was a dream come true. I had clients who wanted me on a regular basis, and I was overflowing with ideas for myself.
After six months of opening my business I was still working at Starbucks and found that owning your own business was at times a burden. I also learned that even people with a lot of money, don't really have money (or at least not to pay the girl that just came and cooked a weeks worth of food for you). A year in to this plan we were expecting our second child and I had decided to just keep one of my clients (Abuela, who always paid me and really needed me). I learned a lot about myself and my capacity to create something out of nothing. I learned how confrontation is not my strong suite and that sometimes it isn't always better to get paid for doing what you love.
There's been so many changes since that time, and I feel even more coming. I started working for a photographer who was actually a Starbucks survivor/coworker. He taught me the ropes of photo editing and sent me to many a seminar on making images look amazing. This recession has hit his business hard and recently he had to shut down his photography business. I'm sad because he helped me to find this new passion of photo editing and taking photos, but I know from my past that I can keep on adding to my list of doing things I love. I've been
dolling up furniture I find that would otherwise be labeled as crap, and of course my little cooking blog here keeps me busy. I pick up money here and there and maybe I can work for other photographers as well, but really I just think that if I keep working on all the ideas that run around my head, I will be very full and no longer feel the need to keep searching to define myself by one thing. I will be driven by my passion for finding new things to love.
Passions are a funny thing that God gave us humans. It drives us to many places, perhaps even straight in to madness. One thing that I just can't get enough of is citrus, perhaps more specifically - lemons. I use them all the time to give a dish a good punch. I like them in
muffins, and
breads. Sometimes I'm a bit afraid that Life Is Still Sweet will be over run with lemons. I've even gone out in the freezing cold to wrap up my lemon tree.
Using lemons in a dish truly makes me happy. So did this Panna Cotta. I wasn't purposefully searching for low fat for this dessert. If I was completely honest here I would use all heavy cream if I had it in my fridge that day. Sadly I really wanted to make Panna Cotta and was left with whatever I usually have on hand - greek yogurt and milk. I will admit that after I made a typical high fat version later, yes, it is very satisfying. But this lemon yogurt Panna Cotta will surprise you and left me happy and full. Exactly what I wanted.
Lemon Yogurt Panna Cotta
1 envelope unflavored gelatin
1 Tablespoon cold water
2 cups milk
1/3 cup sugar
zest of one lemon
2 Tablespoons lemon juice
1 cup plain greek yogurt
In a small bowl sprinkle the gelatin over the top of the water. Place milk and sugar in a sauce pan over medium heat. Gently stir and heat until warm and near boiling. Whisk in the bloomed gelatin until dissolved. Add zest and lemon juice to yogurt in a large bowl. Stir in the warm milk mixture and whisk until completely mixed together. Pour into single serving containers (you could use tea cups or mugs if you don't have ramekins). Chill for at least 4 hours until completely set. Serve alone or with fresh fruit.
I'm so happy to have cooking as one of my MANY passions. I know I'm extremely blessed that I have been able to pursue these things that I love. This recession is hard and seeing other reinvent themselves gives me hope.
What are you passionate about? Books, writing, languages, grapes?